Stormy outside stormy inside

18hrs till my appointment with my Care co-ordinator tommorrow, and im not sure if I can hold out that long, the urge to self harm is overwhelming me as is my frustration with my useless otherhalf, as I suspected earlier hes still on the X-box whilst its me thats washed up, me whose put the kids uniforms into wash and me whose just discovered my daughter in the playroom rather than bed.....

Im so so hurt by the fact that yet again hes talked a pretty talk when the time comes to walking the walk, nothing hes shouted at me when he knew I was on a low, now hes sat on the X-box his excuse being that I told him to stay out the way, now bearing in mind i've been in the living room and both the washing machine and my daughters bedroom arent there id say that was a fairly poor excuse. Maybe its me thats being unreasonable, but you know what I dont care he knows where the door is if he doesnt like it!